Do You Have a Recurring Dream

I've been plagued by this recurring dream for years. I don't know why but every so often, about twice a year a have this stupid dream. Every time I have some details are a little different but the outcome is the same. It has me talking to some Saltine man and he is telling me that I failed 11th grade English and that all of my diplomas are invalid. He goes on to tell me that I will have to redo 11th grade English. In the dream I begin to panic and sweat. I try to explain to the man, whose face I haven't been able to make out, that I passed 11th grade English and there must be some mistake. He is certain that he is correct and that my employer will be notified as well as the two colleges I went to for my bachelors and masters.

The dream goes on and on like this everytime I have it. I wake to find myself questioning did I forget to do something in high school, was there a lesson I didn't learn, what could it be. I haven't been able to make heads or tales of this dream for years. It's kind of haunting. If in the dream the man said I failed Trig, Precalculus or French then the dream would be more realistic. Those are the subjects I struggled with in high school. But I know I passed English with good grades. I thought my 11th grade English teacher Mrs. Dierking looked like a witch. She had jet black hair and wore this awful dark lipstick. But she was nice and a good teacher.

I hope to one day find out the meaning of this dream so I don't dream it twice a year.

I just thought I 'd share some of my madness, since that is what I dreamt last night. What is your recurring dream?

A Poem for Yall

I thought I'd post this to support RMACK's last post.

We Are With You

For brothers everywhere who are keeping on when life is tough.
Don’t give up on tomorrow.
But why shouldn’t you when you say no one can feel your hearts sorrow.

That is not so, you are not by yourself in your plight,
There are sisters with your in your fight.
You face hardships that we cannot measure.
But it is your perseverance and manhood that we treasure.

Times are hard but when were they not.
Your African ancestor brothers were great men or have you forgot

The game of TAG - You're It

Tagged by CHEZNIKI sort of?


1. HAVE YOU GOTTEN LAID IN 2006? Yup, I'm about to get some later today. I don't get it clearly as much as I want it or need it (ladies it's good for your complexion - lol)

2. EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC PLACE? Umm hmm - off on the side of the road once - twice - three times in a car, almost got caught one of those times.

3. EVER LAUGH DURING SEX? IF SO WHY? Yeah, several times. The act of sex itself is funny to me. If you really pay attention to your partners face and you are giving it to him good, there is no way in hell he can keep a manly face. That issh is funny to me - out goes all the machoness.

4. EVER CRY DURING SEX? IF SO WHY? Yes...Which time: the time when it was so boring I just wanted the dude be done - he really thought he was working it - NOT! The other was when I realized I was really in love with my ex-fiance.

5. DO YOU LIKE TO CUDDLE AFTER SEX? it all depends on the person and what time it is. If it is late and I need to get up in the morning Hell no -please move to your side of the bed.

6. EVER REGRET SEX WITH SOMEONE? Not really.

7. EVER FAKED AN ORGASM? Yup many times.

8. DIRTY TALK, OR SHUT THE FUK UP? A little bit of talking is okay, but I'm not really trying to have a conversation.

9. EVER HAVE UNPROTECTED SEX? Yes, with my ex-fiance.

10. EVER MASTURBATE TO YOUR FRIENDS SIGNIFICANT OTHER? Ilk that's nasty.

11. EVER HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND? Yes, but we were friend before that.

12. HOW BOUT A 3-SOME? No, but there was this one time in college back when I was a freshman and my roommate had her man over. I was sleeping and they decide to get busy- they were so loud I thought I was participating.


13. EVER WATCH PORN DURING SEX? No.

14. EVER THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE DURING SEX? Yup - Morris Chestnut, Boris Kodjoe, the dude from the Wire with the English accent in real life, Will Smith (the shower scenes from I Robot), Common, Mos Def, Larenz Tate, Ludacris, Nick Cannon (my young obsession), do I need to continue - ooh yes I forgot the athletes - Kevin Garnett (he ain't the best looking brotha but there is something about him), James Blake (tennis star - with out the locs), and Courtney Vance (married to Angela Bassett) - his lips are divine.

15. HAS THE CONDOM EVER BROKE? Yes damn it!

16. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING SEXUAL EXPERIENCE? The time I was getting busy with my then love of my life back in 1990 at my house. The buzzer rings several times I finally answer it thinking it was some kids playing around like they always did in my building but it was my sister's best friends. I buz them in - thinking we had a few minutes to get dressed (the elevator factor), but to our surprise they got upstairs and was opening the door (they had a key and I didn't know this at the time) while we were just getting up off the hallway floor ( we did it almost everywhere back then). They started laughing at us cause it was evident was was going on. I was so embarrassed. They didn't tell my mom - Thank God.

17. HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY? 16 and a half to this older dude I think he was 19 at the time. I thought he was the issh.

18. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE SEX WITH RIGHT NOW? Well ummerrah I can't say because it ain't my jump off. And he don't know I want him like that (see I'm a lady and ladies don't play themselves like that - wink wink). But damn if he only knew what I want to do with him - umm sinful!

19. DO YOU THINK THAT number 18 IS POSSIBLE? most likely not. I don't think he is really interested (his loss) although we did have a moment of flirting between us. "sigh"

20. ARE YOU HORNY NOW? Hell to the YES!!!!!!

21. WOULD U HAVE SEX WITH THE PERSON THAT POSTED THIS? umm I'll pass.